To never be too attached or too dependent on anyone.
Cuz i never want to feel so sad or broken or disappointed anymore. It’s exhausting and i’ve had enough of it.
Funny how things changed. But this change, i hope with this change, it will protect me from getting hurt.
My mind and heart are telling me the same thing. To stay this way. I don’t need a partner to be happy or what not, i just need myself. I’m not going to let anyone have the power to be the reason of my happiness anymore, for now. That’s for sure.
I’m starting to find everything stupid. It is really stupid.
"I am doing better now."
I’m dying to say this and really mean it. But for now I just can’t. I am not sure myself if I am facing it or am I just avoiding it, as always.
I want to be and feel okay too. Being sad is really exhausting but being happy won’t even last.
Being both happy and sad, I guess that’s just life.
I feel so fucking stupid. The answers are right in front of me. Two of them had already tell me straight in the face the truth. Why am i still feeling this way? Why cant the feelings just disappear? I honestly don’t want to feel this way. I want to be able to let go too. I want to be able to say those exact same words he said and really mean it. But i cant i just cant. And i admit, this is making me feel so fucking stupid i am frustrated with myself.
In the past i would wish that there will be someone to save me from feeling this way but not anymore. I don’t want to depend on anyone anymore. I don’t want to need anyone anymore. With time, things will get better. But just how long more am i going to be this stupid to still feel this way?
Nothing is going the way i want it to be. Nothing at all. Theres so much for me to worry about, so why the hell can i still feel this certain feeling? Does anyone even understand.
Wishful Thinking 😳 #langleav #poem
Thanks for posting this lovely xo Lang
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